Taking Responsibility

One of the many lessons I have learned since this journey started for me is that I need to take responsibility in everything I do. How I act, exercises, put in my mouth…etc. Just In general, we all need to take responsibility of our actions and stop blaming other people or thinking we are entitled to certain things because we have been in certain situations.

I know there are people with eating disorders and some people just can’t help the way they eat or how much they eat. But I truly wonder if my parents and parents after them got their kids into better eating habits and told them to go outside more and play instead of sitting us down in front of the mechanical babysitter (tv) if we would have gotten so big. But this post isn’t bashing my parents or whatever, because it was me that decided to put the food in my mouth. It was me who decided to eat so much when depressed, it was me who got myself into this dismal hole of solitude and self hate.

But I recognize that now. I know that I can’t keep blaming other people or society when it really isn’t their fault. Yes the ideal hurts when you aren’t the ideal and never will be the standard of ideal beauty. But you know what? Not many people are the standard of beauty anyway. I understand that. I accept that. But now I know I must do the work to make myself feel as beautiful as I can feel and put myself into just one version of standard society beauty.

We may say we don’t want to be what society says, but when you feel like an outcast, you want and do everything you can to at least be accepted in some minuscule way in society. So the past 2 years is me finally accepting responsibility of my life. All the good, and All the bad. I may not be able to control any outside forces, but I can control how I deal with those forces.

If I choose to eat that cake, It will be my fault if I cant the weight. I can choose to put it down. I can choose to eat fruit instead. I can choose to live a better, healthier life. Sure I know i will falter. I am human after all, but it’s really about how you get back up and deal with what just happened.

This doesn’t only apply to my dieting, but life in general. I think there are too many people today that feel they are entitled to certain aspects of life when they have not done a single thing to earn it. A lot of people will blame those outside forces, but instead of dealing with the problem, they will whine until something is given to them to make them shut up. American society today is a lot like that. If we complain enough society will give us a pacifier to shut up. Instead of encouraging people to take responsibility for their lives, we encourage them to be beggars, to become complacent and apathetic in trying to succeed.

We tell children to be successful but fail to tell them you actually need to work for what you want. In doing this they grow up feeling they have sort of entitlement. The will say things like “Hey I should be able to have that big house or new job, because I am what I am and you need to give because of who I am”.

People need to understand no one is ENTITLED to anything. Albeit a nice comfortable life, job, a house, health care, beauty, or freedom. These things you need to work for and stop relying on those that are working and trying to make a living. It is not my responsibility to make some other person’s life better. It is MY responsibility to make MY life and my FAMILIES better.

So this is me. Making my life better by being healthy and trying to help my brother out by making his life better by giving him a kidney. I accept what I am doing and all the risks that come with it. But in no way to I ever expect anyone that I do not know and is not family to take care of me or tell me how to live my life. That is my job. That is my responsibility.

Tags: acceptance, Dieting, health, responsibility